I’ve been in plan modus for most of today and yesterday. Setting goals, making plans, scheduling ‘vacation breaks’ for myself and feeling really tired. 2020 was intense in a good way and in a bad way. I didn’t allow myself any days off, aside from the 1 week snowboarding right before the first ‘intelligent’ lockdown. We didn’t travel in the summer or stopped working for that matter.
Although the second half of the year wasn’t the busiest (paid assignment wise) I did do a lot. Now the not taking time off is taking its toll. The last few weeks I’ve been real tired and no amount of sleep is helping. I couldn’t wait for 2020 to be over, but now I’m dreading the new year and what’s to come. I know I have to channel positive energy and that is usually my state-of-mind but at the moment mostly negative ‘what if’s’ are zooming around in my head. Choosing a word for 2021 seems challenging as well. I’ve narrowed it down to a few words but second guessing how those positive words can get a negative outcome… choices, choices, choices so not my thing!
#017 Feeling stuck, tired and a little sad
Abstract painting on Arches hot pressed Watercolor paper
Colors used: blues, violet, sepia and pale gold